Can you want to be in a committed relationship but still not want to wake up next to anybody?

then just contact that ex or someone that's marriage material, and you just start dating them. go on a date or two every week or so. then maybe have them spend the night once every few weeks and as they'll start to want more company, just kinda be open to it but don't just shut them out and say i don't want to spend this much. everyone wants their alone time, that's right. she'll want hers you'll want yours. if she wants to come over and you don't want to tell her no but you don't want her to come over, just say no it's fine i'm about to take a nap or i'm about to go out somewhere.